The Daily Diary of a Sex Addict

I am kc, and my life is a mixture of pleasure and pain.


I am controlled by my cravings, to a point where I cannot help but to fixate on them, obsess over my musings over and over again until these cravings are satisfied and I pass out in a climactic moment.

They haunt me each and every day. And night. I tried to deny their existence. My existence, in a way. Then I ran away. Then I thought I was a monster and became a recluse, and tried to force myself to be stronger, to only see these impulses grow stronger and stronger. Now I accept them. I cannot control them. Not completely, at least. But I can accept them for what they are and for what they give me. I can use them, just as well as they use me.

One day there you stay and hear yourself say these words. These magical, simple words. They define your being. They are you.


My name is Cayce Beltram and I am a sex-addict.